Define this for me...

its late & im VERY bored. The logical thing for someone in my state to do would be to find something to do. I have. And nothing seems to solve my boredom, if anything im becoming more bored by looking for things to do. so im going to write a blog that probably goes in circles with no discerning point. BUT, i dont care!! this si my blog, & besides i only have 1 follower. shoutouts to St. Villy. LOL

-so a few things have been on my mind lately. actually more than a few, but whatever. ive been thinking a lot about this thing called "Love". (thats a lie, it seems that all i ever do is think of love.) I dotn mean thinking about finding love, moreso thinking of it in many different ways. Ive always believed that Love simply occured when people got comfortable with someone & therefore lost their will to keep searching for the one. And most days i still believe that this is what Love is. However, through talks with many of my friends & conversations with music, ive come to take on other views of this beautiful thing (or perhaps its a vile, monster who knows) and have realized that whatever "love" is has NO preset definition. Now if you look up "love" in the dictionary youll find many definitions written by people who probably loved at one point in their life yet, even these are incorrect definitions. OK, well maybe not incorrect but those definitions CANT define love for a whole world of people. Partly because Love isnt a word. its an action. And actions are hard to define.

ok this is a blog to be cont'd.

Inauguration...

Wow!! That's one word to describe the multitude of emotione I've had today. Pride is another. Pride in my country & pride in the leader of it. Many have said that Obama is simply a pop fad, but I disagree. He's more than a phase, more than someone whom the youth has grabbed onto because of his cool & new-ness...he's inspirational. He's a man who no matter ur ethnicity you can look up to & believe him. Writing this almost makes me cry when I think of the impact this has had on us. I, at first, was extremely doubtful of his abilities & was one of the people who thought he was a celebrity. But he won me over w. His eloquent & meaningful speeches and his impending impact he'd have. I truly never thought that id see anyone but a white person as president, im glad I was proved wrong. Im also so ecstatic that my little brother, who's 5, will look in a history book & see someone who looks like him...(really, my bro looks JUST like Obama. Its the ears!! Lol babybama!!)
-proud to be a part of this...

New Year, New Me??

It seems that the new year always brings about the need to change ones self. We make resolutions that we vow to keep, we say that we're going to rid ourself of negative influences & that overall our lives will be better. We have the motto "New year, New me" and believe that the changing year on the calendat also marks a change in ourselves. Yet, by Febuary we are doing the same things we did last September, eating the same fattening foods, hanging with the same people & we are the same person that we were just a month ago. Then upon realization of our failure we start to not care and become certain that next year we are definitely going to change. We make pacts that we promise to keep, and we hope that when the ball drops we also light up with a new self. But, we know that's not going to happen. Change doesn't happen like that. A new You doesn't develop in two weeks, so all that "its 09 & im on my new shit" is dumb. Since most people are still doing the same things that they were in 08. Idk, I just get sick of this crap. In febuary when im looking at my Aim buddy list I know im going to have Deja Vu when being nosey & reading peoples' aways....
On that note...its '09 & im actin brand new ;-)