Boy, Boys, Boys..

I was NEVER boy-crazy nor did i ever care that i spent most of my school years boyfriend-less. i guess that i just always felt that i was better alone..that i didn't need a boyfriend to complete me or make me feel special. and to a certain extent i still feel that away; i don't NEED a boyfriend..i WANT one. OK, well let me correct myself.."boyfriend" may not be the correct word to use..i for one am not fond of labels..perhaps i just want a companion. but "companion" makes me sound as tho I'm entering senility..OK so maybe just a friend. a friend that's more than a friend. Perhaps a lover?? oh but "lover" sounds so porn-ish or romantic novel-y. Following my own beliefs i truly just want that someone, that certain someone, that certain special someone..that someone that i can be happy with, someone who understands me, someone to travel the world with, someone who although both of us fear commitment is willing to make an exception for me and i for him. i hope this doesn't sound like I'm asking for much, i don't believe that i am..am i??

(BTW, this is what i want..not necessarily what i think im going to get now..)